Forty Nine

So many have asked whether I'm nervous. Truth be told, I'm not. Not even a little bit. Terrified is close, hesitant is more like it. A friend of mine used to describe me as being not flexible; unable to quickly adapt to changes. Which is quite true I may say. When I am already too complacent with a situation, chances it would be of time consuming for lifestyle changes. But I'm a sponge. I'll learn along the way. So I thought I had my final period in early November. I'm sorry honey but I thought wrong. This whole preparation and pressure have taken a toll on my hormone.