Tuesday, July 26, 2016

One Hundred Forty Five

Syafiq has picked up a new hobby since end of last year. Knowing him so well, I knew it's a matter of time for him to switch hobby. But this new one was something I never anticipated at all.


My impatient, hot headed, and hyperactive husband now loves fishing. And he has like 3840932809 rods, baits, and other tools/equipment/gadget I don't know what to call.

He's gone on fishing trips countless times. He spent (invested) a lot of money on fishing. But what (my family and) I like about his new hobby is that we get to cook the fish he brings back each time. (Well not to say that he manages to catch a fish eeeverytime he goes fishing, but when does, he would bring them/it home).

So I was cooking at the kitchen with Bibik just now. Ikan masak merah. Bibik was asking, "Ikan apa itu Ja?" Frankly speaking, I only know ikan bawal and pari and keli because of their distinctive shapes. I know nothing of other ikan. For real. So I answered, "Saya tak kenal ikanlah, bik."

She laughed her heart out and said, "Suaminya tukang mancing, bininya tak kenal ikan..."

Well, thanks bibik for pointing that out.

And thanks Syafiq for making me look even worse now. -,-"

One Hundred Forty Four

I started to wear glasses when I was 14. Power was less than 100 but since I was A VERY HARDWORKING STUDENT (at that time), studying was difficult because of my poor eyesight.

And because of my (and dad's) poor choice of glasses, I stopped wearing it considering how ugly I looked with four eyes.

But the sight became poorer over time, so dad took me to the optometrist once again for an eye-check up and I got my brand new spectacles - which I think suited me better. I was 17 at that time.

Since then I never took off my glasses.

Do you know that wearing glasses make your look sepet-er once you take them off? It doesn't help when you already look half-Chinese like myself.

Anyhow, I never had any problem wearing glasses. Some people trying to persuade me to do lasic operation or wear lenses. Well in certain occasions I do get myself in trouble to put on the lenses (took me almost an hour to put on ONE EYE - I cried every time!) like during my wedding, or when I'm so rajin to go swimming or whatnot. Got myself the daily packs and since both of my eyes don't share the same power, I basically have 30 pairs of daily contact lenses and it took me 2 years to finish the first 30 pairs.

Okay so yes, I never had any problem wearing glasses. Except when they gone missing or broken. I never realise the perks of being short-sighted until last Ramadhan.

I was performing tarawih prayers at the mosque, and as a precaution I stuck my glasses at the back of my head where you tie you telekung. Can you imagine or not? But they kept moving and I lost focus each time. I couldn't afford to put the glasses on the floor as the kids kept running back and forth to their mom who, co-incidently was praying next to me. Consequently I wore the glasses for the first time for prayers. God knows how easily distracted I was when I have perfect eye-sight during prayers. I always made sure I prayed at the very front row - but it wasn't helping since I could see people passing by and kids running around.

For the first time in my life, I was very, truly, entirely grateful for being rabun when perfoming solah. Not that I'm saying I was khusyuk all this while, but being rabun helps, really. I am grateful to the fact that I am not able to see what's going on before me when I was praying in the middle of a room. Even when Syafiq purposely smiles cheekily next to the sejadah just to disturb me I am able to stay put to continue my prayers.

Alhamdulillah for this nikmah You took away from me oh Allah the most Knowing, the most Wise.

Thursday, June 30, 2016

One Hundred Forty Three

Dalam usaha membandingkan bahagia dan gembira.

Bahagiakah kita jika gembira?

Gembirakah kita jika bahagia?

Apakah gembira yang kita cari?
Atau bahagia?

One Hundred Forty Two

Sometimes we stop sharing for the reactions we get.

Saturday, June 18, 2016

One Hundred Forty One

I'm still puzzled with the missing of One Hundred Thirty Three.

Anyhow, a couple of days ago, the wing lady was so occupied with work she got so stressed and confused. There was a matter she seemed not able to work out, so she asked me.

I quickly came to a solution and she was very happy. She looked relieved.

"I'm so a genius," I proclaimed.

"That's why you're the boss."

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

One Hundred Forty

I notice that I talk a lot about feelings here. I mean, I love to describe what I feel in the situations I'm in.

And yesterday I had a mixed feeling. A bit anxious, happy, and mostly... (not for the lack of English word, but to express it more precisely) terharu.

This is another phase I have yet to embarked in life. This is no longer a game where I could return to the starting point in case I lose. This is for real.

So we started to dig for our wedding gifts... and masya Allah I was so pleasantly surprise to learn that we actually need not buy anything new at all! Well except for the furniture lah because who would want to buy you a RM2,000 sofa unless we're some kinda elite.

I mean, we did open these presents after the wedding some dinosaur years ago but most probably because we thought we did not need them (at that time), we kept them aside. Until yesterday!

I was only planning to carry one or two items but look at that... we had a car full of stuff! Belum termasuk yang dekat belakang Hilux lagi. Oh wow. I was so overwhelmed. And grateful. And I felt guilty for not having to return the same favour to some people who gave us these wonderful presents. Some of which we missed their weddings... and some we never managed to properly thank.

I shared my excitement with the ladies in the Whatsapp group... which led to a confession by M. She said she never got me any presents for the fear I might not like them and apologised. I felt bad. Not that I expected anything from her. It's just that she was so sweet and thoughtful.

To be honest I love receiving things I can use. Things that are practical. Things I can wear. Things I can cook with. I told my girlfriends I even appreciate my car being refueled or my T&G card being topped up. LOL. That's how I define practical.

Anyhow I'm not sure if this blog is still relevant to any of you. But in case you came (or didn't) to my wedding and brought me presents, I just want you to know how much I appreciate every single one of them. Now my mom's hall upstairs has been cleared up, it's time to unload these things at our new abode.

Saturday, June 11, 2016

One Hundred Thirty Nine

Have I accidentally deleted One Hundred Thirty Three?

Or has it never even existed?