Wednesday, September 21, 2016

One Hundred Forty Nine

This morning, Syafiq came close to me, and said something very romantic. He was almost whispering.

"Baca sajak ke?" I asked. Knowing from the beginning it was actually a song.

He was taken aback and retracted, "Kuasamlah Jaja ni! Tahulah suara kita tak sedap."

I burst into laughter. He further said, half merajuk, "Kita ni asyik dikelilingi orang yang suka bahan kita je."

Saturday, September 17, 2016

One Hundred Twenty Eight

I've been given a luxury of time hence there was a lot of time spent on thinking of things that may seem nonsensical to others.

I blurted out a question to my darling husband on our way to his football match last night.

"What do you want people to associate you with?"

"A successful business."

I nodded silently. Smiled, impressed.

"Okay name three. Two more, please."

"Hmm... being helpful." Oh yes. He is really helpful. Very helpful to the effect that he'd abandon me in the middle of the night to help his friends out. I nodded again.

"Last one?"

"Husajdhasj ijahhadsnazura." The sound of a superbike engine interrupted so I couldn't hear properly. But I knew he was also mumbling."

"Come again?"

"Husband Ijah Ajura."


One Hundred Forty Seven

I realise that people left for various reasons. For knowledge and experience, for a greener pastures, better opportunities, heart mending and the list goes on.

I realise that people left and it's entirely natural to do so.

This piece of writing is a dedication for a little sister I've known for a long time. We may stay apart but you are always close to my heart.

Here's a short poem for you who's leaving (again) today...

Why do people have to leave

When smiles exchanged
When strings attached
When love blossomed

Why do people have to leave...

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

One Hundred Forty Six

Feeling a bit mellow today. Something I haven't got to feel for quite some times. Accompanied by an interesting book, silence and a little bit of boredom.

It's post Aidiladha today and half of me wants to drag me to stroll at a mall while the other half is asking for my mercy to take a nap.

It's also post birthday celebration and I'm feeling loved.

Also struggling lately especially with my worsening skin condition. It gets very itchy sometimes and acne has become a real problem to me now. Even girlfriend is surprised someone our age (well that's me) could be suffering from this, which sounds pretty impossible to us.

That's some updates. I'm giving in to evening nap finally.

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

One Hundred Forty Five

Syafiq has picked up a new hobby since end of last year. Knowing him so well, I knew it's a matter of time for him to switch hobby. But this new one was something I never anticipated at all.


My impatient, hot headed, and hyperactive husband now loves fishing. And he has like 3840932809 rods, baits, and other tools/equipment/gadget I don't know what to call.

He's gone on fishing trips countless times. He spent (invested) a lot of money on fishing. But what (my family and) I like about his new hobby is that we get to cook the fish he brings back each time. (Well not to say that he manages to catch a fish eeeverytime he goes fishing, but when does, he would bring them/it home).

So I was cooking at the kitchen with Bibik just now. Ikan masak merah. Bibik was asking, "Ikan apa itu Ja?" Frankly speaking, I only know ikan bawal and pari and keli because of their distinctive shapes. I know nothing of other ikan. For real. So I answered, "Saya tak kenal ikanlah, bik."

She laughed her heart out and said, "Suaminya tukang mancing, bininya tak kenal ikan..."

Well, thanks bibik for pointing that out.

And thanks Syafiq for making me look even worse now. -,-"

One Hundred Forty Four

I started to wear glasses when I was 14. Power was less than 100 but since I was A VERY HARDWORKING STUDENT (at that time), studying was difficult because of my poor eyesight.

And because of my (and dad's) poor choice of glasses, I stopped wearing it considering how ugly I looked with four eyes.

But the sight became poorer over time, so dad took me to the optometrist once again for an eye-check up and I got my brand new spectacles - which I think suited me better. I was 17 at that time.

Since then I never took off my glasses.

Do you know that wearing glasses make your look sepet-er once you take them off? It doesn't help when you already look half-Chinese like myself.

Anyhow, I never had any problem wearing glasses. Some people trying to persuade me to do lasic operation or wear lenses. Well in certain occasions I do get myself in trouble to put on the lenses (took me almost an hour to put on ONE EYE - I cried every time!) like during my wedding, or when I'm so rajin to go swimming or whatnot. Got myself the daily packs and since both of my eyes don't share the same power, I basically have 30 pairs of daily contact lenses and it took me 2 years to finish the first 30 pairs.

Okay so yes, I never had any problem wearing glasses. Except when they gone missing or broken. I never realise the perks of being short-sighted until last Ramadhan.

I was performing tarawih prayers at the mosque, and as a precaution I stuck my glasses at the back of my head where you tie you telekung. Can you imagine or not? But they kept moving and I lost focus each time. I couldn't afford to put the glasses on the floor as the kids kept running back and forth to their mom who, co-incidently was praying next to me. Consequently I wore the glasses for the first time for prayers. God knows how easily distracted I was when I have perfect eye-sight during prayers. I always made sure I prayed at the very front row - but it wasn't helping since I could see people passing by and kids running around.

For the first time in my life, I was very, truly, entirely grateful for being rabun when perfoming solah. Not that I'm saying I was khusyuk all this while, but being rabun helps, really. I am grateful to the fact that I am not able to see what's going on before me when I was praying in the middle of a room. Even when Syafiq purposely smiles cheekily next to the sejadah just to disturb me I am able to stay put to continue my prayers.

Alhamdulillah for this nikmah You took away from me oh Allah the most Knowing, the most Wise.

Thursday, June 30, 2016

One Hundred Forty Three

Dalam usaha membandingkan bahagia dan gembira.

Bahagiakah kita jika gembira?

Gembirakah kita jika bahagia?

Apakah gembira yang kita cari?
Atau bahagia?