Tuesday, April 18, 2017

One Hundred Sixty Two

Someone said my blog posts now are not as interesting as they used to be. Maybe because I am not as open as before. I pick and choose the things I wish to share publicly now. That's because I've grown out of my emo-teenage-years phase LOL.

Anyway I'm sharing with you on a feeling I shouldn't be having. It's a mixture of jealousy and guilt. Simply put, I am actually having this guilt trip for feeling jealous over something I shouldn't be!

And this feeling sucks. It just tears relationships away and keep us away from each other.

Husband repeatedly reminded me in his calmest way that I should be grateful with what I have in hand instead of being overwhelmed with something isn't necessary at all. He reminds me that Allah's blessing works in the most miraculous way that everybody lives a different path. I am frankly touched by all this positivity from him I cried out loud on his shoulder.

Anyhow we just watched Fast 8 just now and we suddenly came up with this crazy plan to go to Cuba for our next trip. Despite the fact it's gonna cost us years of savings, I'm sure it's going to rock. I mean, I've been meaning to go to that part of the world for so long. Anyone who knows me personally would know I love North/South America! I've been wanting to go to Bahamas, Buenos Aires, Brazil... and how much I love Mexican food. Oh my. This really excites me.

I know I am not supposed to spill the beans but considering I don't have as many readers as before I might as well share this excitement with you. And you know when Ixa says she wants, she's gonna make sure she gets what she aims for. She totally rocks.

Saturday, April 8, 2017

One Hundred Sixty One

Spread your arms and happiness. So you'll see the whole world smiles with you.

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

One Hundred Sixty

It's very hard to find a quality time to spend together these days. He has been busy... we both are very busy and even when eating or before sleeping we only managed to chat about important stuff, which mostly are pertaining to work.

I miss going on a date, where we hold hands and being lovey dovey is all we do. The last time we actually did nothing but sat around and stared at the ocean was on new year, which is like 3 months ago.

I miss him dearly though I still wake up next to him on daily basis. Maybe I miss the cheeky part of him. Maybe I just miss being worry-free and just enjoy his companionship because I love being with him.

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

One Hundred Fifty Nine

I have always been the teaching one. Bit of a scribbler too as I remember better when I write. Was never good at listening.

Friday, January 27, 2017

One Hundred Fifty Eight

Lebih separuh bulan pertama tahun ini sudah berlalu. Have I progressed? I'm not sure. But has the team? Definitely.

We're going to run as fast as we could. So we could work on the dreams that were supposed to materialise years ago.

We learnt our lesson, and it's time to speed up.

Sunday, January 1, 2017

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

One Hundred Fifty Six

We fought a lot at the beginning of the married life. Even over the pettiest thing. Like throwing rubbish. And they weren't small fights where one of us would sulk and the other would console. No. We fought hard.

I still remember when the in laws had to intervene because we went overboard. The father-in-law told me to remain in silence when the spouse is raging. Even if we know for sure we're on the right side. He later added, something straightforward but left an impact in me, "You should be grateful you have the luxury to fight over these matters. Imagine your brothers and sisters whose countries are in war; all they could afford to think of is on how to survive on daily basis. So be grateful. Stop fighting over things like this."

I snapped. It has never crossed my mind that fighting with your loved ones is also a luxury not everyone has. Now I know how to appreciate the love we have for each other better.