Forty Nine

So many have asked whether I'm nervous. Truth be told, I'm not. Not even a little bit. Terrified is close, hesitant is more like it. A friend of mine used to describe me as being not flexible; unable to quickly adapt to changes. Which is quite true I may say. When I am already too complacent with a situation, chances it would be of time consuming for lifestyle changes. But I'm a sponge. I'll learn along the way. So I thought I had my final period in early November. I'm sorry honey but I thought wrong. This whole preparation and pressure have taken a toll on my hormone.

Forty Eight

When discovering about people not liking us, it's good to think, "I'm not going to change myself because of them." Stay true to yourself.


However, if an immense number of people feel that way towards you, it's good to reflect on our character and deeds for self improvement.


There must be reasons for the dislike. True, what others think of us don't matter, but having good PR benefits us a lot.


And most importantly, we want people to share our happiness, and keep us in their prayers. These are bonuses we couldn't ask for more.

Forty Seven

The single digit countdown begins tomorrow.

I, on the other hand am still feeling disheartened by the broken Blackberry.

Being stressed out is not an option otherwise my face will be put at stake. Time management is vital. I work better with functioning phone though. Sigh.

Pressure's on the cake. People might put an (high) expectation on it. Am already working on it now.

May all be well. May this route that we take is guided by Him, all the way.

Allahumma amin.

Forty Six

It's true when they say you need to read to write. I find pleasure in writing. Sometimes it disturbs me seeing people, well, mostly my students who find it extremely difficult to come up with an interesting piece of writing. How else do we express ourselves, I once wondered.

I still write despite knowing some unwanted readers here. Unbeknownst to you you might have left your footprints here. I still write despite having to succumb to the fact that I would now need to be more reclusive.

Forty Five

So my phone broke again. Nobody gives a damn this time (and a couple times previously).

I may not have been extra careful with my belongings.

I just need my phone fixed. The red light's been blinking since yesterday, through the broken screen I could see messages coming. Sigh.

Some said I should start considering using touch screen phones.

But...........

Forty Four

Forty Three

It's raining these past few days. I had a terrible experience driving to Sri Hartamas yesterday with an extremely blurry vision.

But it felt very pacifying once I reached Ampang. I long for such calmness. And now I'm craving for a hot slice of Classified Chicken.

Dealing with people can be very challenging. Even if they are not your customers. Heh. I'm still trying to understand those who aren't able to make up their minds over some petty matters. Why is it so difficult to come with a conclusive answer when the question is already very objective. At some juncture it really tests my patience.

But that's the interesting part of growing up. You observe, you learn from every tiny bit of the experience.

I'm currently learning a few things:

1. To be happy for other people
2. To not be easily upset over petty matters

Two may seem too little a thing, but let these be a focused concern for the moment.

So here comes November. This November, I'm going to make a history.

:-)