One Hundred Forty Three

Dalam usaha membandingkan bahagia dan gembira.

Bahagiakah kita jika gembira?

Gembirakah kita jika bahagia?

Apakah gembira yang kita cari?

Atau bahagia?

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Sometimes we stop sharing for the reactions we get.

One Hundred Forty One

I'm still puzzled with the missing of One Hundred Thirty Three.

Anyhow, a couple of days ago, the wing lady was so occupied with work she got so stressed and confused. There was a matter she seemed not able to work out, so she asked me.

I quickly came to a solution and she was very happy. She looked relieved.

"I'm so a genius," I proclaimed.

"That's why you're the boss."

One Hundred Forty

I notice that I talk a lot about feelings here. I mean, I love to describe what I feel in the situations I'm in.

And yesterday I had a mixed feeling. A bit anxious, happy, and mostly... (not for the lack of English word, but to express it more precisely) terharu.

This is another phase I have yet to embarked in life. This is no longer a game where I could return to the starting point in case I lose. This is for real.

So we started to dig for our wedding gifts... and masya Allah I was so pleasantly surprise to learn that we actually need not buy anything new at all! Well except for the furniture lah because who would want to buy you a RM2,000 sofa unless we're some kinda elite.

I mean, we did open these presents after the wedding some dinosaur years ago but most probably because we thought we did not need them (at that time), we kept them aside. Until yesterday!

I was only planning to carry one or two items but look at that... we had a car full of stuff! Belum termasuk yang dekat belakang Hilux lagi. Oh wow. I was so overwhelmed. And grateful. And I felt guilty for not having to return the same favour to some people who gave us these wonderful presents. Some of which we missed their weddings... and some we never managed to properly thank.

I shared my excitement with the ladies in the Whatsapp group... which led to a confession by M. She said she never got me any presents for the fear I might not like them and apologised. I felt bad. Not that I expected anything from her. It's just that she was so sweet and thoughtful.

To be honest I love receiving things I can use. Things that are practical. Things I can wear. Things I can cook with. I told my girlfriends I even appreciate my car being refueled or my T&G card being topped up. LOL. That's how I define practical.

Anyhow I'm not sure if this blog is still relevant to any of you. But in case you came (or didn't) to my wedding and brought me presents, I just want you to know how much I appreciate every single one of them. Now my mom's hall upstairs has been cleared up, it's time to unload these things at our new abode.

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Have I accidentally deleted One Hundred Thirty Three?

Or has it never even existed?

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I'm walking away.