Forty Two

Had a deep conversation on marriage once.

A: Why do you wanna get married?

B: Because it's fitrah to have the desire to.

A: Not because you wanna complete your imaan?

B: That, too. *silence* Being able to get married is a blessing. Being married to the one you love is a bonus.

A: True. *smiles*

Forty One

In Malaysia particularly (mostly because I'm not aware of the situation in the other parts of the world), more often than not policies and laws are made and implemented selectively. This, from my very limited observation (I do put quite a lot of disclaimers, don't I?) are subject to the interest of a certain parties.

 The most recent issue is on the Kalimah Allah where the court of law held that non-muslims are disallowed to use Allah's name. I totally understand their predicament and worries; that is to protect 'Allah' from being misused and abused. But the act of deterrence would only widen the gap between Islam and other religion (or so I presume).

 Man in general and Muslims in particular are created no other than to worship Allah.

وَمَا خَلَقْتُ الْجِنَّ وَالْإِنْسَ إِلَّا لِيَعْبُدُونِ

(Al-Dzariyyat: 56)

 And as Muslims it has become our duty to protect the sacred religion and to do da'wah throughout our life. It's our responsibility to make people understand our religion, to untangle their confusion and to make peace.

 It shouldn't become an issue if tolerance and respect are practised comprehensively. What happens nowadays is it seems that it is okay for Muslims to mock other religions but not the vice versa.

 The decision on Kalimah Allah, to my mind, only pushes away those who intend to understand Islam better. Islam is portrayed to be untouchable and it defeats the whole concept of Islam that's warm and welcoming.

 This punitive decision isn't a great way to educate the ignorants about the holy name of Allah and Islam as a whole. I reckon it would only ignite more rebels and condescending comments would be made immensely, surreptitiously - to the worse.

 We want to clean the air, to clear the misconception they have about Islam. The foundation of Islam is Tauhid. You've get to strengthen the Tauhid rububiyyah and Tauhid uluhiyyah. Then only we deal with Asma wa as-sifat (tauhid that deals with the 99 names of Allah). Faith can't be forced. And, there are many other Allah's name people can make fun of and we won't even notice because some of the Muslims don't even know the rest of the 99 Allah's names.

 We disrespect Allah's right - to miss the fardh prayers, to omit his prohibitions... And when it comes to making people who don't understand Islam, we become furious. Let's educate, let's stop penalising. Let's start mending the Muslims in us by correcting ourselves, so we could set a good example. So people (especially the non believers) would have more respect towards Islam. So we won't be belittled. So people would understand our message through our gestures. So we fulfill the aim of why we're even created in first place.

Salam Aidiladha 1434H.

Forty

 I wrote your name in the sand,
 But the waves washed it away.
Then I wrote it in the sky
And the wind blew it away.
So I wrote it in my heart,
And that's where it will stay.

Thirty Nine

What happened to my interest in writing?

Sigh.

There's a lot to share, a little to write.

Let's play Word Game then. Answer every question with a single word.

What am I currently feeling?

Grateful

My current worry?

Over-spending

Whom do I currently remember?

Fiance


Okay bye.

Thirty Eight

Today I came back home feeling grateful. I've never felt so much love despite being alone in the car. I saw the house was still bright upon opening the gate.

 I could never imagine myself being brought up in a different house, by a different family. This house has showered me lavishly with love & compassion that I was spoilt by choices of the routes I wished to take when growing up. I was given much liberty but with much care.

I couldn't be any better without this, the family and the house.

 The house is old and it has always needed some fixings. This family isn't perfect. There are a lot of things I wished I was taught but I wasn't. But I'm still very much thankful for the opportunity to grow with it.

 I'm who I am because of this house.

 Now it's time for me to repay. I'm not sure how much have I owed, all I know is I wouldn't afford to substitute even my whole life for everything I was given.

 I can't love these two women who are the pillars of this house any better. Who never stop loving me no matter how nasty I can be towards them.

 I'm so cold outside I don't know how to show that I actually care for my moms, but I really do. Everytime I take a glimpse of the future, I spell both of your names.

  I love you Mama. I love you Cik Nah.

Thirty Seven

Browsed through some of my old photos & realised that at the same date yesterday, 4 years ago, I was on stage receiving my scroll.

 If you were my follower from my previous blog, you'd know how it meant a lot to me. I almost had to extend my studies, but managed to complete it on time.

 It was a blissful day, I felt loved and appreciated. Had a hard time smiling all day through for the camera, but enjoyed every second of it.

 Guess I'm going to face a similar 'difficulty' to keep smiling for the camera in less than a couple of months time.

 But first thing first, need to shed some of these stubborn fat.

 Let's!

Thirty Six

If there's a word to describe me, it has got to be 'adamant'.

I'm a self-motivator, I hope to inspire, especially people around me.

Life is like that, it has its ups and downs. It's okay if you're at the bottom today, find your way up. So long you've got your limbs to climb. So long your brains are functioning - there's hope.

Even if you're not strong, it's okay. Because there's Allah - He's our strength.

This journey of ours, isn't always a smooth sailing one. Expect hiccups. Expect winding roads. And when faced with those, never turn around, because that's not an option. Brace them, find a way to maneuver.

It's the survival of the fittest we're talking about.

How fit are you?

Thirty Five

We are not created perfect because there are rooms for improvement.

Those who never learn from their mistakes are the worst of kinds.

Let's strive for betterment, slowly but consistently.