Thirty Four

Excited? A little bit. Scared - hell lot.

 Honestly, I'm really scared. Can't imagine the lifestyle changes, hormones imbalance, commitment, financial-wise, and many other stuff I might perceive as burdens.

 Truth is, they're all for me to experience as part of our life cycle. I'd embark on a whole new scene, with many new characters, different plots and props! It should be interesting.

 That's why it's scary!

 May Allah ease. Allahumma amin.

Thirty Three

The urge of sharing has got to stop. Or shouldn't it?

What's the harm afterall? Disappointment it is.

Thirty Two

It's a learning process.

Getting to know each other and to understand one better is a lifelong affair. Along the way we can't escape making mistakes. Through mistakes that we've rectified, we reconcile... and love even more.

It's not about avoiding misunderstandings, it's about managing them each time they occur.

Thirty One

Kalau tak mampu membuatnya tersenyum, jangalah membuatnya menangis.

Thirty

My philosophy of life mostly revolves around the attainment of happiness. I find happiness vital in living one's life.

This explains what I do for a living now. Explains a lot on how I take on life.

Explains the reason I received one of the most heartfelt birthday wishes at 12 midnight:

"I wish you good health, wealth and happiness. Yes. Happiness. I want you to be happy for the rest of your life. Because that's what you wish for since forever."

Thank you.

And I want you to be part of my happiness. Today and always.

Happy birthday to me.

Twenty Nine

There are so many things we tend to question for we have not understood the human nature in depth. That is why Islam highly promotes moderation or wasatiyyah. It deals a lot with self-control, psychologically and emotionally speaking.

These days, this self-control isn't something quite manageable for many, especially with the interference of the social media. The urge to share every-single-thing overrides the needs to keep something exclusive to oneself.

Let's draw a few instances, which revolves mostly around relationships.

You are getting engaged. Friends have been uploading photos of their sophisticated, wedding-like-engagement-ceremony (read: a few know of my stand on this - I'm very against over-spending and over-sharing). You want to look as chic. You spent thousands on your engagement (money spent could've been saved for the actual nikah or the marriage itself) and brag about the event on social media.

Issues to highlight:

Over-spent ceremony
Oversharing and revealing excessive information

Then you keep on bragging (or what we normally call 'expressing') your vanity and self-love for weeks.

And something happens along the way. And you start spreading your negative vibes, feasting the eyes of your friends with your faulty words to show your rage. Another oversharing moment.

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Most times I feel like I'm standing on a cliff trying to control myself. To grab people's attention to congratulate or to spill flattering words. You want to be on cloud nine. You want to feel belong.

But then I chose to contain myself. And each time I do, it's beyond satisfactory.

Twenty Eight

Revisiting 25th December.

 I love you blue, I love you green. I love you more than peach ice-cream.
I love you north, south, east and west, you're the one I love the best.
I love you once, I love you twice. I love you more than beans and rice.
I love you banana and apple pie. I love you till the day I die.
I love you salmon, I love you steak. I love you no matter whatever it takes.
I love you as long as I remember. I love it's the 9th 25th December.
I love you day the shiny sun. I love *name that rhymes with sun*. :)


 Yours truly.

25th December 2012



*Looking forward to the upcoming 25th Decembers.

Twenty Seven

"Can we start over?
Can we be strangers again?
Let me introduce myself
We can laugh and talk
and relearn what we already know
and come up with new inside jokes
and create new memories
and give each other a second chance."

21 August 2013, 2225 hours.