Seventy Two

"So after knowing me so intimately after a year plus now, what do you think my hobby is?" asked moi curiously.

I honestly have no idea what my hobbies are.

"Hmm... Jaja suka tolong orang."

Well, that would do. And I slept soundly with such answer.

Seventy One

Seventy

Nightmares, among others, are reasons I refuse watching, or reading sad ending stories. I think life can be pretty atrocious most times I don't need to spend my supposedly leisure time dwelling in another bad experience.

O Allah. Keep my family safe.

Sixty Nine

I was craving for a bowl of cereal for breakfast at 1ish last night. Hadn't had any cereal for weeks. Husband was out with some friends. Immediately as the thought of cereal crossed my my mind I phoned him asking him to buy some for breakfast. He didn't have to buy the large packs, suffice that he get the small one so I could end my craving.

The next morning (read: now) as I searched through the kitchen, I found a box of Honey Stars, large one, enough for 10. I smiled, so thoughtful of him. Then I looked for the milk. I saw he bought 2 huge boxes of milk, one mocha and one full cream... This was beyond expectation.

Only that why did he have to put them in the freezer?!

Sixty Eight

I was wondering if being blind gives one the much needed peace, so I bathed with both eyes closed.

Kau ibarat bersatu dengan kedamaian bila kau tak semena-mena tersenyum dan alpa tentang kegelapan di sekeliling. Tiada rasa gusar dan tiada sedikit pun rasa takut.

And then I opened my eyes to reach for the facial foam. I suddenly missed the ultimate serenity that once overwhelmed me.

Sixty Seven

It's true you would appreciate the little things that irk you the most when they're gone.

Syafiq's out of town for work. We only got to contact each other at night when he was in hotel room with Wifi. Last night he told me it was his first time missing my nagging. On my defense I don't nag! No no. I only get mad and throw tantrum and that's it! Hehe.

And I am missing him a lot too. Normally at times like this I'd be exhausted and all I need is a brief phone conversation with him.

The best thing to do when you are longing for someone is to pray for him from afar.

Isn't this a wonderful feeling?

Sixty Six

Salam lebaran yang dah nak tiba ke penghujungnya dah pun.

Banyak sungguh yang bermain di fikiran, yang perlu diturunkan ke dalam buku catatan supaya tak lupa dan bila dah tercatat nanti barulah kita rasa, "Oh, taklah banyak sangat sebenarnya kerja aku."

Punca segala kerja yang menimbun ialah cita-cita. Cita-cita merogol masa kualiti bersama yang tersayang. Dan membuatkan aku tersepit; cita-cita dunia dah jelas, cita-cita nak membawa ke akhirat macam mana?

Makin dirasa banyaknya kerja, makin tak cukup masa. Mengingatkan diri pada kisah Rasulullah s.a.w. yang agung, yang mana sangatlah berkat masa dalam kehidupan sehariannya.

Ah, "keberkatan masa" itulah yang aku cari sebenarnya.

Rasulullah s.a.w. solat subuh di masjid, dan ada pagi yang baginda pergi menyuapkan seorang Yahudi buta sarapan. Baginda, sebagai seorang ketua negara, mempunyai masa bergurau senda dengan isteri(-isteri)nya, membuat amal jariah, dan bangun malam bertahajjud! Menakjubkan lagi, surah-surah yang dibaca dalam solat-solat malamnya bukanlah ayat-ayat lazim yang pendek-pendek, tetapi surah-surah yang panjang seperti Al-Baqarah. Jadi, bayangkanlah berapa lama masa diambil untuk qiammullail baginda?

Kita ni sentiasa tak cukup masa. Sampai tertinggal solat. Terlupa makan. Terlupa telefon orang yang tersayang. Tak sempat masak. Tak dapat pergi majlis walimah rakan-rakan. Ke mana hilangnya keberkatan masa itu?

Seringkali kita tekankan tentang keberkatan harta sehingga terlupa babak keberkatan masa.

Cepat sungguh badan terasa letih, walhal baru memandu dari Keramat ke Balakong di tengah hari terik. Keberkatan kesihatan juga ke mana hilangnya?

Banyak yang perlu dimuhasabah nampaknya. Agaknya, selagi tiada penambah baikan diri, selagi itu Allah tak kurniakan kejayaan.

Betulkan niat dan teruskan usaha, Izzah.

Oh, dan jangan lupa jogging.